4am and I still cant sleep. Today I had my music playing while I was cleaning the house and the song ‘Well Done’ by Passion. It was ironic cause I was thinking about my grandpa last night before I went to sleep. I wish it wasnt so hard for me to communicate with family. I wish it wasnt so hard for me to express myself either. I just dont know how to put it all into words. It makes me feel worse as a boyfriend too. Knowing eventually she’ll see this and I haven’t been telling her everything. It’s just i dont even know whats wrong with me either.. Maybe I should see a psychologist ..
Wow been a while since I’ve used this.. I should use it more often. To help me remember everything and well I guess so you can get to know me a little more. From now on I’ll try to post every night. Well yeah it’s three in the morning and I can’t sleep. Every night at a time like this, I begin to wonder, to reminisce, contemplate.. everything.
I look back at everything I’ve posted on my tumblr and it hits me, how much I’ve changed. There are so many things I wish I could take back. So many things that has afflicted hurt to another if not myself. Worse thing is, I was so selfish, so prideful to not even show sign of humility in my apologies, of worse even, I don’t even apologize at all.
I should probably sleep. So I’m going to play pokemon til I crash out.
Anonymous asked: hey do you and your brother have any tattoos??? and also if you do what are they and where are they???
Only I have tattoos. two actually. one on right side of my chest. “now & forever” another on my back right side saying “all i got, is all i need”
Anonymous asked: you're cute, your girlfriend better watch because illoveyou!
sorry, i love her more :)
Anonymous asked: fuck dem other bitches, your mine
yes boss.
Anonymous asked: do you have twitter? =D
yeah i do actually follow me =]
JDMerciadez
Anonymous asked: Hi Justin what is your girlfriends name?
chesca
Anonymous asked: Justin what is your full name?
justin dale mendoza torres merciadez
